Today feeling!!

好不容易我们的婚礼冲破百天之内，算算手指我们准备这个婚礼都需要一年半的时间，我庆幸自己在准备这个婚礼没有跟Mr.Quah吵闹，我说什么他都赞同，他给的意见我也仔细想想，有时他给的意见真的很不错呢！！

还有大概一个月我就要回大马了，心里真的很矛盾，一心想回去赶快做完婚礼还没有完成的是事情，还有回家多陪家人，另一边心就是不想回去，想在这里煮煮东西给他吃，帮他做家务。他告诉我，我回去后，每当他返工回家，家里静悄悄的，他说他会想念我！！我想我明白这种感受。以前他到外国工作时，我的感觉就是这样，本来天天见面吵吵恼恼的我们，突然身边变的静悄悄了。好不习惯。Mr.Quah,你想不想有个完美婚礼，还是乱七八糟的婚礼呢？我回家就是准备这一些，再说我们多两个月我们又见回面了，两个月对我们来说是小儿科吧！！

越靠近婚礼，我越是胡思乱想，可能在佳礼家庭伦理呆太久，看太多家婆与媳妇之间的问题，又有很多是丈夫站在家婆那里一起指责老婆。我怕这些问题迟早是我会面对。 可是Mr.Quah说他妈妈不是我想象的那样可怕，再说我们呆在大马的日子也不久。好吧！我就这样接受他的解释。但我希望将来无论发生什么事情，他会站在我这里想想我的处境。

Unbelievable our wedding ceremony is within 100 days!! We are prepared this wedding in one and half years and I am so happy and fortunate because in the preparation process we never quarrels for opinion, what I suggestion he can accept and all the suggestion given by him I would also carefully consider. Sometimes he really has marvelous suggestion!!

There are about a month I will return to Malaysia, I was really in a dilemma, I want to go back to complete my wedding preparation and also I wish I still can stay a bit longer with my own family, my mother and my father!!! But on the other side of the heart, I wish I can stay a bit longer with him too, I still want to prepare dinner and lunch for him, and help him with household chores. He told me, after I go back Malaysia, when he back from work, he will feel lonely and feel empty in the house. I think I understand his feeling!!! I try before for so many times. Mr.Quah, do you want to have a perfect wedding or a wedding in as mess of it?? I go to prepare our perfect wedding right??!! Moreover, 2 monthe staying apart is not a big problem for us right??

On the other hand, the more close to the wedding, the more I am thinking about the problem between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. Maybe I read too much in some family problem forum. I am afraid all these problems sooner or later I will face. But Mr.Quah say his mother is not horrible that how I am thinking now. Somemore we are not always staying in Malaysia. So there are no big problem at all!! All right, for this time being I still accept his explanation. I hope in the furute no matter what happens, he will always standing besided me and understand me!!