平凡的幸福 Simple but happiness

平凡的幸福。。。今早在其中一个电视节目听到的一句话。可能有人会认为我念书念到大学，现在应该好好的打拼事业，创造美好“钱”程。也许我也为这样的想法挣扎过，难过，想过！！我妈妈是个全职的工作女性，帮忙家族生意，忙起来几乎早上也做，晚上也要做。我和我弟就是这样被培养独立的。从小我就很羡慕朋友的妈妈是个家庭主妇，因为只要学校有什么节目，运动会，颁奖典礼，他们的妈妈爸爸肯定会出席，就算爸爸没来，妈妈一定会到。每天都是妈妈驾车载他们去上课，下课。发生什么事情都是妈妈，妈妈的多么撒娇。有时他们还会有爱心便当。弄得我羡慕。。。还是羡慕！！我呢？这些事情发生在我身上简直用五根手指头都可以算到。从来没有爱心便当的我，不过有时还是会有妈妈在市场打包的炒面，炒米粉。自己打包的比率更多。其实我没有怪我妈妈，爸爸。我告诉自己, 这也是他们万不得已的, 工作赚钱更重要。要怪只能怪为什么我妈妈不是家庭主妇。哈哈！

所以我曾经告诉自己，有一天我当妈妈了，我不会让我孩子那么难过的。有能力的话就做家庭主妇。陪陪孩子过每一个成长过程。

就在我两年前进入幼儿教育界，我对这种妈妈与宝宝的关系看得更重了。开始有打算有孩子后，就不要工作了。在家好好教育孩子。不过，还没有孩子之前我的生命中又有了另一个转泪点。本来我和他就已经是算远距离，他在柔佛区念书，我在吉隆坡区念书。他念完四年课程本以为他可以在吉隆坡工作，跟我结束远距离。哪里知道他竟然得到一份要跟我分得更远的工作。我的天啊！一开始，我简直疯了！他去了，阿根廷，瑞士那段时间想打电话给他，我不敢, 怕太贵。结果等他打电话给我。。怎知讲讲下。看下月尾电话结单竟然上千元。那时候真的疯狂！！所以，他就决定，叫我放弃我的工作。刚开始他告诉我时，我都不能接受，因为我考虑到我是大学生啊！我必须给妈妈钱。每月我必须。。。。！！他都一一同意。这时候我又想起了当年我曾经有过的想法，就是我会辞职，放弃事业。现在只不过是提早实现这个想法。

我这样有了一个平凡的生活，没有事业上的精彩火花，没有职业女性的美丽魅力！我也这样冒冒然然的实现我从前的小小想法, 就这样拥有着平凡的幸福!!

“Simple but Happiness” …I heard this word from one of the TV Chinese program in this morning. And because of this, let me think and redefine myself.

I guess many people around me, included my relatives and friends. Will think I have a degree, and now in this stage I should have my own career and earn more money for better life for myself and my family members.

Share with you my story again…haha!! My mother, she is a working mom, she helps my grandparent’s business in the restaurant. And it’s really a busy business, sometime she needs to work in the morning and continue work till night. Nobody will take care of us, my brother and me. So, I guess my brother and me cultivate this independent ability from this moment. Hehe!! When I was in primary school, I’m so jealous when I see my best friend rice box prepared by their mom. And everyday their mom will fetch them to school and after school will see their mother come again to fetch them home. Every time when our school has activities, like spots or family day, their both parent sure will attend. Sometime dad is busy with business; mom sure will come to attend. And till now, I still remember my feeling, I’m really really really jealous about this!! But frankly speaking, I never blame my beloved parents; I understand they need to work for live and need to support our school fee and our living cost. If I want to blame, maybe I will blame that: Why my mom wasn’t a housewife? Hahaha

I remember I told myself before. If one day I become someone mommy, I will not let my child suffer like me. I will try my best to spend more time with them in their learning and growing process and if possible I willing to leave my job and stay with them.

When I work in Shichida method (Children learning center) for 2 years, I become more emphasize and sensitive about the relationship between baby and parent. And start to plan, if one day I have baby, I will leave my work and become full time mommy. But….!! (Sometime we really cannot plan so detail)…my boyfriend suddenly get a job in oversea..OMG!!! I know my plan will be change soon. I plan both of us will work in KL together. I plan although cannot see each other everyday, but at least when I miss him, I just give him a call and we meet up. This is my entire plan, but not his plan. So, till one day he asks me to follow him, live together with him wherever he goes. At first, I totally cannot accept, I am a degree holder and I need to have my career, every month I need to give mom money…..every month I need……I need!!! He told me no problem…everything will be fine. At this time, I suddenly recall back previously I told myself: if one day I become someone mommy, I will not let my child suffer like me, I will leave my job and accompany them. So now, is just ahead of time for me to accomplish this thought…..

So, since I follow him I become a simple lady, I don’t have my successful career, I don’t have a beautiful and charming office lady look, but I have my simple and happiness life…